Of parting with friends

Early last year until perhaps sometime around october , I was convinced that tomorrow I would fly to Perth, Australia to finish up the remaining 3 semesters of my bachelors program. Initially when it had first started out, I was excited about the prospect of flying with Airin and Prema my two classmates who I've shared so much with during my last semester. As time passed, as much as there was excitement there was also fear, mostly of not doing well and adapting to new surroundings but I guess what scared me the most was taking up a huge amount of my parents life saving for my bachelors. I remained brave until the day we had the first pre-depature briefing, when I learnt that a good amount of money had to be paid in advance if I wanted to secure a seat in Murdoch, my parents were perhaps a little hesitant with my decision then to go to Murdoch especially since it was a semester earlier then I had actually planned... but nevertheless they gave me the support that I needed... but somehow I couldn't see myself taking such a big step, especially when I wasnt sure how well I would do in my then current semester, and paying a huge amount in advance and not being sure of the results was taking a huge risk, and I did not want to take that risk not knowing what was ahead of me. Then there were talks of a 3+0 murdoch program which a lot of the students had opted for, so after looking through the pro's and con's I decided to jump in the bandwagon and wait for the 3+0 program, it was still a risk nevertheless because there weren't any confirmations on when the program would begin but it would allow me to save some amount of money and perhaps be a little more independant...

Tomorrow 10th Febuary 2006, my two friends along with the rest of my classmates will be leaving the country to persue the final year in Murdoch University in their respective majors... I had met them briefly yesterday, to say our goodbyes and catch up on a few things before they bid farewell to Malaysia... I couldn't stop my tears .. yet I wasn't sure why I was crying to even begin with ... was it because I was being left behind? was it because I would miss them and the times we'd spent together , was it because things were not going to be the same again for me in class? It could be one or it could be all of those reasons above, yet it was a decision I had made for my life... mom want's me to transfer in July saying that I should expirence life and learn alot more then just being a good daughter or at the very least trying to be a good daughter at home.... however the decision is yet to be made... for now Room 308 will not be the same again, there will not be front row gossips with the laptop chicks (Airin and Me and then Prema joined in the laptop chicks group) , no more Tuesday and Thursday long break movies in 1Utmama , no more Group presentations with Airin which somehow we made an excellent team I think .... whatever said and done ... Airin and Prema were the 2 classmates that made me realize what friendship is truly about, being there for each other .... and accpeting me for the person that I was ... or rather became with their help ...